What relief there is
to know our confusion’s past.
For that I’m grateful.
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n.b. In a complex world, establishing a little bit of peace, love and understanding is always a good thing, however long it takes to get there.
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CLP 21/02/2021
Retrograde movement
an optical illusion
Orpheus, don’t look!
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n.b. Apparently there is a bit of thing when Mercury is backsliding for nostalgia. Being grateful for the good things is one thing, wallowing in the past – meh.
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CLP 17/02/2021
After the pancakes
I resolve to abstain from
life’s little pleasures
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n.b. I think that I may have run out of things to give up since the first lockdown, but I’ll give Lent a go, I have nothing left to lose.
CLP 17/02/2021
Subscribing to the view
that I should take a break
I sat back to watch football
– an unfortunate mistake.
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n.b. No. You’ll have to look it up yourself, sorry. Yes, £10 online. 🙄
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CLP16/02/2021
I was walking back from the shop, carrying a paper bag of groceries in my arms when I reached the bridge. I have been here before, but not like this. There has usually been some kind of run up, run out, or just gradually being run down. Not this time. I just thought, from nowhere really, “I could just step over the barrier.”
I surprised myself at the sudden appearance of the idea. I recognised this as ideation and important to acknowledge. I need to speak to someone. Then it came on me again, echoed in my limbs, was more familiar, less frightening. I thought of my sons and grandchildren, my family.
I walked back to my apartment. Unpacked my groceries. Went to an online business meeting. Afterwards I made a phone call and asked if the kettle was on. It was, of course. The kettle is always on somewhere.
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CLP 03/02/2021
Another day of tears. A venerated old man died along with one thousand, four hundred and forty-eight other UK victims of the pandemic. Tomorrow Will Be Good Day is the title of his book.
With that hope in my heart I withdraw from this one.
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CLP 02/02/2021
