On Understanding

What relief there is

to know our confusion’s past.

For that I’m grateful.

~

n.b. In a complex world, establishing a little bit of peace, love and understanding is always a good thing, however long it takes to get there.

~

CLP 21/02/2021

On Mercury

Retrograde movement

an optical illusion

Orpheus, don’t look!

~

n.b. Apparently there is a bit of thing when Mercury is backsliding for nostalgia. Being grateful for the good things is one thing, wallowing in the past – meh.

~

CLP 17/02/2021

On Ash Wednesday

After the pancakes

I resolve to abstain from

life’s little pleasures

~

n.b. I think that I may have run out of things to give up since the first lockdown, but I’ll give Lent a go, I have nothing left to lose.

CLP 17/02/2021

L3 (Day 41): Bristol – Virtually

Subscribing to the view

that I should take a break

I sat back to watch football

– an unfortunate mistake.

~

n.b. No. You’ll have to look it up yourself, sorry. Yes, £10 online. 🙄

~

CLP16/02/2021

L3: Day 29 On The Bridge

I was walking back from the shop, carrying a paper bag of groceries in my arms when I reached the bridge. I have been here before, but not like this. There has usually been some kind of run up, run out, or just gradually being run down. Not this time. I just thought, from nowhere really, “I could just step over the barrier.”

I surprised myself at the sudden appearance of the idea. I recognised this as ideation and important to acknowledge. I need to speak to someone. Then it came on me again, echoed in my limbs, was more familiar, less frightening. I thought of my sons and grandchildren, my family.

I walked back to my apartment. Unpacked my groceries. Went to an online business meeting. Afterwards I made a phone call and asked if the kettle was on. It was, of course. The kettle is always on somewhere.

~

CLP 03/02/2021

L3 (Day 28): At the Window

Another day of tears. A venerated old man died along with one thousand, four hundred and forty-eight other UK victims of the pandemic. Tomorrow Will Be Good Day is the title of his book.

With that hope in my heart I withdraw from this one.

~

CLP 02/02/2021